A little Time

ok, It has been a little while and a little/ a lot has happened in my life. I think I am a step in the right direction. I Pray that I am at least. Busy Busy. Working, playing enjoying life, soaking in pain.

Why is it that the right choices are always the hardest, No, Why are the right choices the hardest when you have to make them months later? I feel better about it all but it hurts so much. I really hurt someone else too. ok I said I would be honest on this thing. I hurt Melissa. It was her choice, it was my choice. we knew this would be coming, but it still hurts and I forced her into the change, which hurts. I told myself I would never hurt her, and here we are.

I wish her the best. We are good friends and will remain that but we are no longer and can never be as close as we were. It was enjoyable and I had a lot of fun, but things change and it was eating me inside to not be doing the right thing. So here I am. I Vow that I will not let her pain be for naught. I swear I will honor my commitments so that her pain was not because of a frivolous decision. God help me. I need you now.